in me and I stood up for her.
I thought I was doing the right thing but this cultist guy didn’t take it lightly. They started threatening her and by extension, me. I tried my best to protect her but things took a tragic turn. One night, five members of the cult group attacked her and raped her.
It broke her in unimaginable ways. She became withdrawn and was never the same again. To make matters worse, the cultist started looking for me, angry that I interfered in his plans then one dark night while I was at a friend’s birthday party, they mistook someone from my hostel for me. They butchered him in cold blood. That could have been me but it wasn’t and the guilt of that alone is something I still carry. Fast forward to 2021. After years of staying in touch as friends, this girl and I decided to take our friendship further
We both felt the intimacy had always been there, so making it official felt like a natural step but omor as we began our relationship, then I started battling my emotions. I thought I could live with what had happened to her but the memories of her trauma weighed heavily on me.
knowing what those five men did to her, knowing how it broke her, changed her mehn I couldn’t let it go. She had been through so much that she even resorted to hookups to cope with her pain and rebuild herself financially.
I tried to suppress my feelings, thinking I could love her beyond what she went through but the truth is, I couldn’t. The memories and the trauma lingered and even though I never showed it to her, it was tearing me apart inside.
Eventually, she went back to her hookup lifestyle and on this day, I was perplexed cos we were a thing Whether it was her coping mechanism, financial choice, or something else, I’ll never know fully understand but I couldn’t take it anymore and that was when I made the difficult decision to end the relationship.
It’s been a journey of pain, guilt, love, and loss. I stood up for someone I cared about and it led to tragedy after tragedy. I don’t regret protecting her but I still question if things could have been different.
I hope she finds peace someday. Life is heavy sometimes and all we can do is keep moving forward.
