You see this life ehn, I will never in my life jûdge any woman that says don’t marry or date a man you are above.
Because trüly, I don’t even think my husband hürt me I hürt myselfff. I’m edücated, I’m întellîgent,
I may not be rîch but I’m very cõmfortable. I can buy what I want, trâvel when I like, and I live well.
My husband works, yes, but he is not edücated and wõrse still, he is not ready to learn or ünlearn anything. That’s where my pain trüly lives.
This mman can mix yellow shirt, blue trouser, and red tîe and walk prõudly If you as much as tell him it’s wrõng, you’re in trõublese. He’ll tell you, It’s fine like that. You people like fâke life too much. I’ve tried, I’ve begged, I’ve cõrrected calmly but he’ll still insîst that people like me are the problem because I “over-do.”
Yesterday was the péák. I took him to a couples’ dinner where I was one of the guest spéákers. They served him food while I was still spêâking because my turn came toward the end of the event.
My dear, this man started brêâking bõnes loudly like he was in a mêchanic wõrkshop and was even using his hand to pluck meat from his teeth while people watched. 😩 If you saw the faces of the people on our table the shõck, the dîsgust you’d understand what it means for shâme to bürn in someone’s chest.
I forgot everything I had planned to say.
My bráin blânked. I started talking off põint until I ended the talk cõnfused. I wanted to dîsâppear. When I later told him, gently as usual, that what he did wasn’t right, guess what he said? He said, Leave all these fâke life people. I can’t prêtend for anybody.
At that point I just kept quîet, because I realîzed I was the one who fõrced myself into this painn. It’s not that he hurtt me; I hürtt myself by thinking love would têâch him mânners. So now, when women say, Don’t marry a man you’re above,I just nod qüietly because I have lived it. And hõnestly, I rëgret it 100%. It’s funny, paînfullll, and emõtionalllll at the same time because truly, love is blînd, but marriage opens both eyes sometimes too late.
I feel so ãshamed of myself for my p00r choices because he refüsed to learn.
