I think it's time I speak up thou I find it very difficult because I have a lot of trust issues.
When I was just 10 years old my cousin r%ped me(g%y).he told me I should never speak of it or else I will die and because I easily get sacred I never told another living being. It went on for a while before he travelled to our hometown. this made me develop no feelings at all for the opposite sex now my friends all think that am gay and truth is I have never attempted s%x since that time. I am now 22yrs and I fell like no body loves me and I am missing something big. I don't want to be g%y because I don't want to wear diapers but sometimes I have this unexplained strong edge for men . Now I don't know what to do
Its not easy for me
I am still afraid of people
