Cause we aren’t together anymore
I broke up with her because well I’ll get to it in a bit
So basically I love this girl so much
But she has well let me say issues
Not mental but emotional
When she was little
She got raped by her cousin but she never told her parents or anyone for that matter except me
But before me
She had many many boys but then she didn’t really like them cause of the rape incident so when she met me and realized I was different she fell madly in love with me
Ok ok so Yh the rape thing made her insecure
She gets so emotional over the littlest things
And she worries a lot so when she found someone who could feel up the void in her heart she cherished me for life. But then things got harder
Her emotions got the best of her
Her insecurities increased cause she thought I was to handsome and she didnt like the fact I had a lot of friends female to be exact so she became protective
The initial plan was to keep our relationship a secret but then I think she wanted to be territorial so she told everyone and our relationship hyped
But I loved her so I went with the flow.
We continued loving her and we finally kissed for the first time
It wasn’t the best kiss but it was magical cause well it was with the love of my life
We continued vibing and she begun to open up to me
She told me about the rape thing
I told her I didn’t care I still loved her but she said that I shouldn’t tell anyone
Then she told me about her parents divorce and how she feels so alone
But then I was scared you know
She wants to get married and all
I want to to but then I’m just scared I’m afraid I’ll hurt her you understand but oh well
We continued with our relationship then she became suicidal because of her insecurities
And I just got scared cause will she’s been through a lot
And if I leave her she’ll commit suicide
But well I still did
That was the hardest thing I’d ever done
I watched her cry
She sent vns crying
I didn’t even break up with her straight to her face it was over a long ass text about how I’m not good enough you know that vibe
I feel so stupid thinking about it but oh well
We are still friends tho
Turns out she didn’t commit suicide
But she tried tho
Every time she brought the knife close to her neck
Close to her wrist to slit
She couldn’t she just dropped it and started crying
She deleted her socials but later she came back online
She still talks to me because well we love each other but we can’t be with each other cause it’s toxic
She’s going abroad and I’m going to stay here
I mean I could put up with her emotions but what are the odds I’ll see her ever again when she goes
She was the love of my life is the love of my life
But then we can’t be together
That’s the dilemma
😂😂sorry it’s long
So basically
I don’t know what to do
I mean I can still date her but I’ll only hurt her more
But not being with her hurts both of us
So should I do what’s best or fuck that shit and let love run through the test of time
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